Classic and Contemporary Poetry
HERE IS MUSIC: RESPICIT JUDEX, by AUSTIN PHILIPS First Line: Hair, strands of copper blent with skeins of gold Last Line: Supreme in self-abandon, artist effortless. Subject(s): Love - Marital; Passion; Wedded Love; Marriage - Love | ||||||||
HAIR, strands of copper blent with skeins of gold. Eyes, like forget-me-nots which secret tears Have touched to feeling that such flow'rs enfold But seldom. Limbs whose lissomness appears, Nymph-like, beneath the summer frock she wears. Body, whose slender elegance suggests Some boyish being, but for rounded breasts. Hands whose sweet shapeliness has few compeers. Feet, light as air that flings the fields its kiss. Heart of high courage, steadfast to abide. Ultimate syllable in daintiness. Ardent of soul, swift in self-sacrifice. Proud as the proudest ... yet, for all her pride, Supreme in self-abandon, artist effortless. This is the cottage that was hers, Hers was this garden, where I came, With heart on fire and soul a-flame, To see those shapely kingfishers Hover and settle, flash to claim Their prey ... like live Excaliburs. This is the ancient garden-close Wherein I stood to watch the Teme Swiftest of rivers, yet who flows With sweet susurrusstrongly speed By dale and meadow, moor and meed, Towards marriage-bed 'mid Severn's stream. ... This is the haven which my wealthy wife, Sick, for a space, of show and social strife, Came, in caprice, to purchase, drugged with dream Of pastoral pleasures, flirting with the simpler life. The note of blackbird, song of thrush Invest my ear; upon my sight Fall unforgotten pageants, bright Landscapes; while grasses, gracious, lush, Gleam glad beneath the sun's strong light. Around me blue-bells blossom; blush Roses; burn poppies; lupin lifts Its lances; chestnut buds appear, Pink-white and gay; in snowy drifts The fecund fruit-trees froth and foam Like waves the wind has whipped to spume, While, almost at my feet, I hear Afresh, the ancient and familiar roar Of pounding waters as they press and pour In frenzied, fearful haste 'cross Branscombe weir, And, hearing, have my heart penned in past passion's pow'r. Before me those unfilled deck-chairs (My wife, for social pleasures fain, Has fled away, with spirits twain, In fevered urge for urban airs) Bring back lost, ancient hours again, And all the Buried Past appears. I look on you, your husband, (him, The Painter who, so hatefully, Held you as handmaid, at gross whim, Enjoyed your body and, foul knave, Made you unceasing household slave) And her, his pupil, come to be His mistress; sense your rare, unusual grace Shine in sweet contrast to that coarse, gross face; Feel heart, know soul dissolve in sympathy. ... Find Love, from Pity born, leap into life apace. Leap into life, and pass and press From Pity to those other things, Constituents of Love, the springs Of Love's sum-total ... Tenderness: Their number, three: Protectiveness; Next, Admiration; last, the stings Of Passion which, so potent, fierce And ruthless, rush to take control, Surge, irresistible, to pierce The tenuous armour which surrounds Man's heart, that, tottering, weak from wounds, Betrays man's citadel, his soul. ... So was it I, as though by lightning's stroke, Stricken a space with sudden blindness, woke Slave of the God, ached, ardent, to enrol, Huntsman and slave, henceforth, 'neath Passion's fearful yoke. One glance ... and all was o'er. I read In thankful eyes swift gratitude For sympathy, then felt my blood Burn, and my pulses leap, fierce need To take you in my arms preclude Calm thought, knew am'rous hope succeed Detached commiseration, came To sense each fibre, filled with fire, Feed freshening furnace in my frame. ... One glance ...! Of such is Love's domain Peopled, Love's empery made plain! Thenceforth but one unvoiced desire Informed my soul and senses, drove me on Towards Love's complete, last culmination, Urged me consume, made vast funereal pyre Of lingering loyalties before Queen Venus' throne. But not full consciously at first, Since Passion, draped in Pity's dress, Went masque-ing as Protectiveness, Wore Admiration's cloak, and erst Walked self-deceiving, questionless Of inner motive. Thus, athirst, Hungered and hot with sex-urge, came Desire decked out as Gratitude And falsely called by Friendship's name, To unite us twain (already drawn To give, each unto each, in pawn Our intellectual selves), imbued Us both with burning, overwhelming need For utter union, so to slake and feed Frenzy for marriage of both spirit and blood. ... To own Love's Lord's sweet sway in Love's last ultimate deed. From that hour onward Teme's fair vale, Her Hills, her Woods, her hurrying Stream Saw us together, watched us dream Out long, delicious days, and scale Great un-imagined heights, supreme Apex of ecstasies, regale Our souls with manna, run rich range, Glad gamut of ideas; thus find, In such adorable exchange, Excitement, stimulus and Peace, One-ness of spirit, rare release Of inhibition; blend and bind Ourselves into eternal union, brought By mirth to marriage of our midmost thought: Fated, each one, felicitous, to find The ardent being for the other fashioned, wrought. Sudden it seemed that all was said, One mid-May night of sultry heat, Silent we sat. Before our feet, Beneath empurpled slopes up-spread, The singing river, faring fleet, A hidden, headlong, vaporous thread, Rippled; while am'rous song-birds made Their music to a mist-hung moon, And nightingales, in lane and glade, Trilled gorgeous gamuts, sounded scales Gracious and glad as Attic vales E'er heard of old in Night's high noon. ... Our hour was on us. All o'erwhelmed, we burned For final union, Passion-driven, turned Caught at each other, clung and kissed; full soon Passed to complete fulfilment, mated, mixed and yearned. Hair, strands of copper blent with skeins of gold. Eyes, like forget-me-nots which secret tears Have touched to feeling that such flow'rs enfold But seldom. Limbs whose lissomness appears, Nymph-like, beneath the summer-frock she wears. Body, whose slender elegance suggests Some boyish being, but for rounded breasts. Hands, whose sweet shapeliness has few compeers, Feet, light as air that flings the fields its kiss. Heart of high courage, steadfast to abide. Ultimate syllable in daintiness. Ardent of soul. Swift in self-sacrifice. Proud as the proudest ... yet, for all her pride, Supreme in self-abandon, artist effortless. Through hours of dalliance and delight Divine, incomparable days, Exquisite wanderings in Love's ways, Outstripping hope, surpassing height Of happiest dreamto further phase We drew. First, strange, indefinite Fear came to finger at our hearts, As though steps stumbled 'cross our grave! Stark shadows followed. Doubt's dread darts Assailed our souls; came crescent sense Of some Disaster, stark, immense, Destined to make us serf and slave Of ceaseless sorrow. In our anguish, we Took constant counsel, came, at last, to see One single, sole solution; held it strong to save, And royal road which led to true security. Freedom, Divorce, Re-marriage. I Felt it beyond all human pow'r To hold such love as mere amour, Mote of a moment, made to be Fugitive, destined to endure But trivial time, then brutally Broken on Fate's rough wheel and, flung On Fortune's sorry ash-pit, lost Life's refuse, lie Life's shards among. I could not silent sit, and see Him use you in cold cruelty As handmaid, hear him, braggart, boast You such ... support, with every nerve a-jar, That un-declared, afflicting, inner war Which those unceasing wage, at cruel cost, Who captive walk, and chained, in toils triangular. At first your happy heart leapt high In hungry hope of hours to be, You spoke, you dreamed unendingly Of days to come, when you and I Should dwellunited and yet free Care-less beneath some island sky, Cerulean and Italianate; Possess each other, yet possess (Master and Mistress of our fate), Our individual souls; in fine, Be wholly human, half divine, Fond fugitives from storm and stress Of cruel codes, find glorious release In self-set exile, paint or play at ease, Have, as sure setting for true happiness, A little house within whose walls there homed large peace. We talked. We planned. We made our pact. The hour approached. The stage seemed set. Nothing, I felt, could bring defeat To brave, cold, calm courageous act, Or, cruel, come to foil and cheat Us twain from fashioning dream to fact. ... When, suddenly, your mood seemed changed, You owned odd qualms, uncovered doubt, Shifted and hesitated, ranged This way and that, announced that he Was treating you less cruelly, And then, next moment, turned about, And after that turned, tearful, back again, Cried that you must not come, although full fain To fly with me, to put to final rout My anguish ... place a period to all ache and pain. That night we wandered through the wood Beside your garden, walked the glade Within whose sheltered, sombre shade, So oft, in seeming certitude Of large success, in high Crusade, My hungry lips had kissed and wooed: Close at our side pink campion. Beyond, a bank of violets, Dim in the darkness showed and shone; Muslin-and-chintz-like ladysmock, And leopard's bane in yellow frock, Made rich-pight carpet; canzonets And bird-notes came ... but broke on these the foul And fretful screech of Night's ill-omened owl, Fate's harbinger and herald, hurling threats, Foretelling grief in tones that grided, froze the soul. We leaned on lichen'd gate. You tore Some green-grey growth from topmost bar, Twisted and turned it (distant far The scene, yet vivid evermore It stays, lives, stands familiar!) With expert fingers, artist-lore, Into a flower's semblance, took My coat's lapel, and gently drew Me downwards, tip-toe'd, then, to hook The thing within my button-hole, Gave me your lips in loving dole, Stepped back, considered me anew, Strove (but in vain you strove!) to exorcise The brimming, swimming tears from your sweet eyes, Came forward; fought, heroic, to subdue All sorrow, stood wrought-up to stern self-sacrifice. "Listen, my dearest one," you said, "My love belongs to you, my mind, Breath, soul and body mix and bind Themselves with yours in dream and deed, Reach rest, touch exaltation, find Fulfilment of their last, least need. But you have courage. Hid within His fine-formed frame a weakling's heart Lies hid, to cowardice akin. Yours is a certain strength, but he, Poor wretch, has ceaseless need of me. Woman I am. Wherefore my part Pertains to Pity. All my being grieves And aches at losing you; nay, while it lives, Must walk the sun's course widdershins, athwart. ... And yet my way lies plain. One has but what one gives." "He is my husband. Habit is Full ten times nature. Twice five years Have fled since first I walked in tears, Discovered him antithesis Of all my girlish hopes, felt Fear's Cold fingers pierce and paralyse My being ... learned him lazy, lusk, Divined myself henceforth to be The lifelong handmaid of a husk, Who, by undreamed good fortune came A space, to gather some small fame, When, keyed by passion felt for me, He spewed up sombre mood and came to show His inner-self on canvas, paint the Teme-side glow With such address that Chantrey's Chief Trustee Compelled prompt purchase, vowed him great ... in embryo. "He is my husband. Since I set My hand to such a sorry plough, Nothing is left, my dear one, now But to assume wan winding-sheet Of Love: in living-death to bow My neck 'fore Fate's sharp falchion, let You gonay, urge you gomake end For all time of our dreams, endure The unendurable, and send You forth, in cruel grief, to gain Fresh strengths and later, love again He needs me. Hence my forfeiture Of Life itself, acceptance of long load, Harsh aftermath of happy harvest, sow'd And reaped, whose mad, sweet mem'ries must stand sure What time, with aching feet, I walk my long, grey road." I thought your words expressed mere phase Of some kaleidoscopic mood, Which, mutable and fleeting, would Fast be forgotten ... that our ways To-morrow must be glad and good, Gracious as had been yesterday's. But soon I saw those words were true, Sincethat coarse pupil-mistress gone Your husband, changing, turned to you, As one adrift on Ocean's dark Abyss draws help from neighbouring barque: He who had left you walk alone A hundred happy days, for hateful 'rights' Hungered a hideous space, greedy for Lust's delights. Such was sad certainty. I saw you shun My gaze ... and guessed you gave that drone, a-new, your nights. Such phase soon fled. Day after day, Idle, hour-wasting, woe-begone, He lay supine 'neath summer sun, Or else, ungrateful, would inveigh Against ill-fortune and intone His fancied ills in fatuous way, Or watched youdream of daintiness Work, where the cottage-kitchen door Wide-open stood; while in sharp stress And hardly-hidden wrath, I stood To see sweet hands in servitude, Nimble and expert, skilful, sure, Devise him dishes delicately drest, Behold you, Beauty, barmaid to the Beast, Look on, lamenting, loathe that bestial boor, Long to be gone, yet linger, captive self-confessed. Once more you turned to me, and clung And kissed. Our bodies mixed and met In utter union. Love's dear debt Was paid. In joy to right the wrong Done unto Love at Duty's let, Again there surged through me swift, strong Passionate ache to force you free Despite the old allegiance, bear You, slave, from black captivity, Shatter your shackles, make you mate 'Neath island skies Italianate. ... But, when I spoke my thought, came clear And firm your answer. "Although Love enwreath And bind us twain with passion strong as Death, Yet is his need the greater. Learn, my dear, Duty is Life itself ... and lasts while Life holds breath. Once more I saw your husband turn, Possessed by hideous, hateful gust Of passing passion, grossly thrust Odious attentions on you, yearn Again to make you holocaust, Burnt sacrifice to bestial lust. ... This time within me something broke, And snapped. I could not stay, endure, Meekly imprison'd in such yoke, Stand by and see him satiate Desire upon my soul's one mate, Hold her scarce higher than ordure. ... I could not let her, bruised and broken reed, Seek in me still more solace in black need. I walked in wrath. I sought escape. I tore My heart in twain, found force a fleeting space ... and fled. A month I strode on foreign soil, Wandered a-foot in wretchedness, Fierce fugitive from loneliness And shame of spirit, caught in coil Of cruel Fortune's cold caress, Lived lamentable, Love's exile, Came Home un-healed, to find relief In ceaseless labour, stout cuirass, Sure anodyne 'gainst human grief, Stood firm, shunned all propinquity, So steeled my heart, fought slowly free, Built up great gulfs of Time and Place, Learned at long last how fixed ambition brings To men, man's solace from Defeat's sharp stings, Found in the Law's pursuits stout carapace, Turned from unworldly love to unworthier worldly things. The métier makes the man. I came Through drab devotion to my task, To find my corselet, shield and casque In frigid, legal outlook, frame My life on nice conventions, mask Each impulse, until, to my shame, My outward semblance seemed to be Not merely métier's disguise But inner and essential me. I found (I thought) real happiness In each step upward towards Success, When named King's Counsel held it wise To ensure my future fortunes, knew swift need For wealthy wife, in fatuous folly wed Her whose metallic soul and heartless eyes Fill me with hate ... with hunger, too, for days long dead. Hair, strands of copper, blent with skeins of gold. Eyes like forget-me-nots which secret tears Have touched to feeling that such flow'rs enfold But seldom. Limbs whose lissomness appears, Nymph-like, beneath the summer frock she wears. Body whose slender elegance suggests Some boyish being, but for rounded breasts. Hands, whose sweet shapeliness has few compeers. Feet, light as air that flings the fields its kiss. Heart of high courage, steadfast to abide. Ultimate syllable in daintiness. Ardent of soul, swift in self-sacrifice. Pround as the proudest ... yet, for all her pride, Supreme in self-abandon, artist effortless. This is the cottage that was hers, Hers was this garden, where I came, With heart on fire and soul a-flame, To see those shapely kingfishers Hover and settle, flash to claim Their prey ... like live Excaliburs. This is the ancient garden-close Wherein I stood to watch the Teme, Swiftest of riversyet who flows With sweet susurrusstrongly speed By dale and meadow, moor and mead, Towards marriage-bed mid Severn's stream, This is the haven which my wealthy wife, Sick, for a space, of show and social strife, Came, in caprice, to purchase, drugged with dream Of pastoral pleasures, flirting with the simpler life. I turn, and, turning, stand and see White-plastered wall and black-tarred beam, Creeper-hung cottage, spot supreme In Life's long voyage, where, lessee Of Love, in dear, delicious dream, Day through, I lingered am'rously: There is the lattice-window, whence You looked on me with laughing eyes, Listened, gave happy audience To my impassioned pleadings, knew My heart's outpourings thrill you through, Next dallied, called for compromise, Half yielded, vowed my passion fruitless, vain, Coquetted with concession, changed again, Lost all reluctance, turned to covetise, Met, matched my mood, flung passion glad, free, fullest rein. I turn, a second time, to see, Beyond the river, Berrow Hill, The high-backed lane, the water-mill, The barn with dormer windows three. The sandstone farmhouse, red and still, Shines forth in sun-kissed brilliancy, The gate above stands plain and clear, With sentry hawthorns on each hand. A lake of buttercups lies near, While cattle, clustered in close groups, Lurk motionless on shimmering slopes, And, as of old, the oak-trees stand Like necklace to the summit, where we lay We twoon such an afternoon in May ... Saw Severn's vale outspread; her shining band Slide, sluggish, seaward; drift on drowsy, dreaming way. Where are you now? I know him dead, Slain on the highway while he rode With pupil-mistress, who bestrode His cycle pillion-wise, and bled Beside him, lying lifeless clod. ... I heard it whispered you were fled, Southwards and sister-wards, to some African city, had the force To make new life there, find fresh home. Fain would I follow, fling away All that inhibits me to-day, Seek you and wed you, have recourse To that which is the one sole thing I ask, Which stays, all-time, un-compassed, hopeless task, Since High Court Judges grant, not gain, divorce. ... And those who sought must wear, not set aside, their mask. Judge of the High Court. Like some Cain, Who crushed and killed his counterpart, I stand proved traitor to that Art Which was my one true métier. Plain My crime. My punishment and smart Unceasing, crescent. Trapped, self-ta'en, Self-tortured, must I walk who slew My better, higher self, became Common careerist, one who drew His hand away from ploughshare's haft, Won place by legal lies and craft, Slave of "As If", vile valet, vain Impostor, spurious, ignoble, sleek, Cringer and cur and bully, pseudo-meek And pseudo-strong, Convention's chamberlain, Spiritual coward, sum of all things worthless, weak. 'Weak'! 'Twas the word I found for you In furious anger, all but hate, Because you strove to sublimate Your sexual self and, staunch and true, Held to harsh plough-haft, faced your fate, Loved, but relinquished Love and drew New force from such relinquishment. 'Weak'! Not the least part of my shame Is that, in wild and turbulent Wrath, I cursed you who claimed no strength, But, shaken reed, grew strong at length, Who, though consumed by fire and flame Of fiercest passion, steadfast stayed to see Your task fulfilled and finished royally, Foresaw your long grey road, walked this, and came Into your spiritual kingdom. ... Duty's devotee. ... The note of blackbird, song of thrush Invest my ear; upon my sight Fall unforgotten pageants, bright Landscapes; while grasses, gracious, lush, Gleam glad beneath the sun's strong light; Around me blue-bells blossom; blush Roses; burn poppies; lupin lifts Its lances; chestnut-buds appear Pink-white and gay; in snowy drifts The fecund fruit-trees froth and foam Like waves the wind has whipped to spume; While, almost at my feet, I hear Afresh the ancient and familiar roar Of pounding waters as they press and pour In frenzied, fearful force 'cross Branscombe weir, And, hearing, have my heart penn'd in past passion's pow'r. Hair, strands of copper blent with skeins of gold, Eyes, like forget-me-nots which secret tears Have touched to feeling that such flow'rs enfold But seldom. Limbs whose lissomness appears Nymph-like, beneath the Summer frock she wears. Body, whose slender elegance suggests Some boyish being, but for rounded breasts. Hands whose sweet shapeliness has few compeers. Feet light as air that flings the fields its kiss. Heart of high courage, steadfast to abide. Ultimate syllable in daintiness. Ardent of soul. Swift in self-sacrifice. Proud as the proudest ... yet, for all her pride, Supreme in self-abandon, artist effortless. | Discover our Poem Explanations and Poet Analyses!Other Poems of Interest...TO MY WIFE by GEORGE WASHINGTON BETHUNE VARIATION ON THE WORD SLEEP by MARGARET ATWOOD IN THE MONTH OF MAY by ROBERT BLY A BALLADE OF GREEN FIELDS; FOR F.W.M. by AUSTIN PHILIPS |
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