Classic and Contemporary Poetry
HERE IS MUSIC: RESPICIT MEDICUS, by AUSTIN PHILIPS First Line: We two, that once were young, to-day Last Line: Since first we looked, longed, loved ... Stood paramours. Subject(s): Love - Marital; Old Age; Wedded Love; Marriage - Love | ||||||||
WE two, that once were young, to-day Are oldwe two that, long ago, Looked, loved and, swept in Passion's sway, Sought am'rous, secret, sweet essay, Divine, delicious vertigo: Sought, yes, and found, made rendezvous, Kept tryst, to feel fulfilment bring, In eager, glad foregathering, Reward past all envisaging, Union of body, mated soul, Spiritual marriage, moments stole And filched from frowning Fate's control, Moods tender, moods fierce, turbulent, Heights touched, depths plumb'd, emotions blent In one supreme enfranchisement. ... While many guessed, but no man knew, What blessèd, un-bless'd bonds bound blissful me and you. Shall I forget how, heart to heart And limb to limb and soul to soul, We lay, companion, counterpart Each unto each in Love's last sport, In what large way, with rich, rare, full Contentment, it was ours to cull Glad gifts he gaveMagician! Once we had dared and, woman, man, Had crossed his shining Rubicon. ... Nay, I remember half a hundred things, And, in remembering them, Remembrance brings Yet half a happy hundred further; stings Me, ageing, unimpassioned, to regret That in such life as lingers I shall eat No more such manna ... starving, taste those sweet Moments of union, ne'er re-live sublime, Ecstatic hours of our insatiate prime. As in old hours I see you still, Beauteous and burning, bruised beneath Hot kisses, hungry to fulfil Fair rites, draw back, recover breath, Step from your frock, like silken sheath Loosed and let fall with fond free will; Provocative in déshabille, Sweet and provoked voluptuary, Toy with dear thought of things to be, Stand smiling there a space, suspire, Heap fresh-found fuel on fierce fire, Drive me half mad with deep and high desire, Find me aflame and stirred to far, profound Recesses of my being, burn and bound Forward, fling hungry, am'rous arms around Your body, bear you bed-wards: you, intent To seal our love in spacious self-abandonment. I sense a space that strange, rare Peace (Fright'ning in its fair beauty!) such As stole upon us, brought release, Respite and freedom, sweet surcease From Passion's empire, grasp and clutch, And lulled us lying on Love's couch. ... I laze and linger, brood and bide, Propp'd on my elbow, watch you hide But now bared breasts, turn dignified, Put on afresh that modesty You doffed what time your frock fell free, Watch your deft fingers make me tea, See you, solicitous, approach a-new, Sit on our bedside, swing your shapely shoe, Frown, fearful, at the clock, make mournful moue, Bid me arise, be gone; in woe, proclaim I think on duty, work ... have forethought for your fame. Though this was much to us, not all It was. Though vital, yet small part, Those stolen hours hebdomadal. Since we, twin victims of harsh, swart And kindred fortune, blown athwart Each other's paths, poor serf, sad thrall, Sudden found respite; starving, knew Stay and soulagement; forthwith drew Heart's ease and help, had long-sought due Of Happiness; so came to see Life in perspective, grateful be For suffering which, insensibly, Had drawn us two together, conjured, wrought Undreamed-of miracles, had, potent, brought To both what both, till then in vain had sought, Which bade us twain behold and recognise, At sight, our second self in wilder'd, wondering eyes. Nay, from that first, fair moment, did Not all things alter, fortune take Fresh turn in two torn lives and thrid New warp, new woof, stand swift to slake Spiritual thirst, assuage long ache, Old grief and, thus assuaging, break Grim, griding spell, bid sympathy, Mutual, be born, strike and set free Some force enslaved in you and me? So that a curtain seemed to lift Sudden, a carking cloud to drift Away, Life's sky show rent and rift, Its Sun shine gracious, strong, thus gladden, warm Sad, sorely shaken souls, enchant and charm, Uplift, enlight, inspire, re-charge, re-arm Them, and, disclosing pre-appointed way, Let loose long-shackled pow'rs, transform sad night to day. Even in things material Love wrought, no less, strong miracle Than in transcendent, spiritual Things of the heart, the soul. His spell Saw me storm fort, win citadel Of what men call Success; in all Affairs of Earth advance and find Fortuneonce harshfair-smiling, kind, Gentle and gracious; kindle, tind Deed and decision; balance bring To every action; well-being And wealth alike send blossoming. ... And why, and how? Because, forthwith, release From care I found, clear-sightedness, quick ease Of thought so soon as I had stated case To you, whose simple presence set me free To choose with judgment, forethought, think with clarity. Thus, then, I prospered; thus I found, For the first time, at forty, true, Full happiness, beyond the bound Of hope and dream; because of you, Resistless, scarce resisted, drew Forward afresh, of cruel wound Had healing and medicament; To-wards my wifeimprovident, Venomous, acid, virulent, Whose sadness, girlish discontent, Poor fool! I once had hoped to heal, So wed ... to know Life rock and reel, And ruin near, and nearer, steal Show'd patience past my pow'rs before; Through you, as master, king and conqueror Of Fate I stood ... through you, who drunken boor, In unwise hope, in gen'rous, noble youth, Had ta'en, sweet soul, as spouse, from fond, romantic ruth. Your songrown minethe brilliant boy Who 'scaped his real father's curse, Brought me, the son-less man, rich joy; In his advance I came to nurse New hopes, old dreams, place self and purse At your disposal, find employ For sides of me o'er-long unfed, An-hunger'd and inhibited; Thus, helping eager feet to tread Their chosen path, seemed to fulfil Myself, hand on my hard-won skill Like lighted torch; to work my will On Life itself; be fated not to die But rather to endure vicariously, Even at hour of physical death to be Strong surgeon yet, whose art restricts, allays Suff'ring, drives out despair, dow'rs men with worth-while days. Ah, yes, I know that pedant priest Or posturing pundit, swift to spin Dishonest platitude, and dress'd To kill, must long to mount in haste His pulpit-steps and, safe within Such fastness, urge we "live in sin" ... But we know better, dear one, we Who grasped and took strong way, nor see Two homes destroyed, but faithful be To chosen road, accept our curse, Eschew complete escape, divorce Forgo; sustain, support our coarse, Unworthy partners, find unquestionably, In regular irregularity Of union, highest, best morality, Which, e'en as in Him who lived sans stain, sans flaw, Is, always must, e'er will be 'gainst the High Priest's Law. If, as you say, I broughtstill bring You happiness, then not in vain Our twenty years foregathering, Our common griefs, joint pleasuring, Exultant moments, hours of pain, Sweet, present peace, past passioning. ... Friend of my heart, for all time true, If aught of good on Earth I do, Or e'er have done, through love of you It comes, or came to being. Know, Before I leave Life's puppet-show, Cease on some morn or midnight, go Grave-ward, my debt to your munificence Of loving aid is too profound, immense For right expression, fitting recompense. ... 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